yeah~!

finally i dont need to force myself to slp early n to wake up early le!

consecutively 2 opening.

thu n fri.

wed night i just cant get into slp at all.

-.-

at 11plus i feel so sleepy le.

coz had been awake for 24hrs.

cant slp.

yet still need to work!

so freak~

nina came over at 5.

she waited for me to clear up my work.

we went home tgt.

bathed.

had dinner.

watched tv.

I WAS DAMN TIRED.

i went to slp.

today was ok.

just tat cant eat peacefully.

my auntie bought me kway tiau for breakfast.

i ate abit at 8am.

continue few mouthful at 1130am.

somemore at 2pm.

finished at 4pm.

pity right?

too busy n no time to eat!!

-.-

went alter my dress aft work.

gg for movie le!

tooth fairy~

here i come!

=DD

ciaos~

i called in 933 again!

lalala~

=D

no one date me.

nv visit sean n sharlin.

coz i woke up at 3pm!

lols.

think they're in the plane on the way back to australia now le ba.

see ya next time!

=p

promised not to shop online anymore.

got far too much tops and dresses le.

but just cant resist the temptation!

=DD

i went jogging today!

hees!

(:

tmr management meeting.

sians.

-.-

nothing much happened at work.

bosses just like to visit centrepoint.

perhaps we're at town area.

its a danger for me working at orchard.

be it regarding work or even personal.

=|

time really flies while im at centrepoint.

i mean really fast!

im there for 8.5mths already!

i think its coz centrepoint is much more busier tats y i feel times real flies.

well this qns leads to me thinking..

where n when will be my next store?

new store scape park?

hees..

just randomly thinking.

nv tried opening new store before.

maybe if can i wana try.

think it will be a good experience.

(:

haha!

y am i thinking of transferring out?!

when my days at marina i dont ever think of transferring out.

n i dont wana be transferred out!

coz the ppl there are real great!

so..

am i indirectly saying ppl at centrepoint are not great?

well..

no comments.

finally my off day aft 5days of work.

used to the tiredness le.

dont noe where to go.

date me out pls!

lols.

wana go visit sean n sharlin before they gg back to australia.

think sharlin will not rmb me when the next time i see her.

will sean rmb me when the next time i see him?

=p

im glad having such positive guys in store who trying their best to make the store shine.

(:

its oso a misfortune having those stubborn girls in store who going against those positive guys.

-.-

felt abit shity being a cafe mgr who cant make a perfect cappuccino.

):

got sabo-ed as she mc n made me running the store alone aft 6pm till store closes at 12am on a busy sunday.

even my crew asked me y am i alone.

kind of hate running store alone.

coz cant go toilet n have my break in peace.

-_-"

hope n pray the result of the visit just now i a PASS.

i dont noe to be happy or sad tat she did not come on my shift.

den when n who will discover my talents?

i really dont wana wait too long...

well forget it.

just work hard n think positively ba!

jia you!

=D

just read my past posts.

1 dated 9nov09.

ya the one i mentioned he lost his 'couple ring' of ours.

yes!

he found it!

he found it just on his driver seat lor.

its like he had been sitting there drove so many many times.

funny~

so wat i told him its true.

(:

loves!

<3

he took mine ever since he lost his.

n now i wanted mine back.

he refused to return me.

sads.

but nvm.

i noe y.

(:

nv met him for this whole week.

missing my love!

i oso realised i have yet meet my jies ever since i came back from genting.

coz the gifts is still with me!

lols.

missing my jies!

i cant rmb when is the last time i met my ex-best-friend.

2mths?

3mths?

hmm...

wat a day~

yes!

stupid unreasonable ridiculous customers!

again~

i really wana go pai pai pray to chase away my swayness.

-.-

she bought a $10.85 meal at 2145hrs.

den at 2245hrs came back and complaint that the food(everything!) is undelicious.

well since its undelicious.

return the whole meal to me!

but instead.

she finished up everything!

yet demanded for a full refund.

WTF!!!

i left store le.

he/she came to my mgr and asked for a lost n found hp back.

saying tat alr called up the restaurant to verify.

he/she spoke to mgr name eddie.

freak lahh.

my store no one named eddie lor.

fine nvm.

while my mgr was calling me and the rest to ask whether really is there and lost n found hp(assuming he/she hear the wrong mgr name lahh ahh)

he/she scolded my mgr for not having the sense of urgency.

***k lahh.

u want back ur hp wait lahh while my mgr check with the rest of us.

am i right?

guess wat?!?!

he/she told my mgr tat...

he/she went to the WRONG restaurant!!!

WTF~!!!

my mgr got scolded for nothing...

y is there such ppl in this society?

hope these kind ppl dont go overseas.

even if they do.

pls pls pls dont ever say they are from singapore.

damn throw face!!!

sorry!

did not went movie with u all.

kind of tired le.

n not the movie i wana watch.

next time k!

=p

im not tired.

im VERY tired!

i reached KAP at 1230pm

and i reached home 12am.

made me cant join june and all for movie.

sads.

):

im kind of addicted calling into 933 le.

i called in 2 times le.

hees.

lalala~

=p

busy and tired!

-.-

ppl outside might not noe.

working at mcd is oso very stressful.

ppl might think all we do is make n sell burgers.

all we say is 'hi welcome', 'thank you see you again'.

but behind all these there is damn lot of work.

im always thinking other fast food have what we had?

FOR?

SOR?

PPA?

MS?

CSO?

how i wish i can get my friends to join gapbuster n visit my store.

once our result is fail.

is like as if getting a F9 for O's eng.

tats how serious it is.

if we pass our result.

is like as if we got a degree cert.

tats how impt to us.

for every new promotion.

the preparation is not easy for us operation n head office ppl.

is like as if building a beautiful perfect house from a empty flat land.

tats how tedious it is.

yes we are that stress.

while consumers outside?

wat they noe?

all they noe is to complain complain more complaints and endless of complaints!!

FEDD UPP~!!!

think i wana go pai pai to chase away the sway-ness le.

-.-

back!!

not me.

my laptop!!

ya for those who dont noe.

my laptop's down.

os and windows crush.

dont ask me y.

i dont noe!

sent for repair.

for abt 2weeks?

all i can comment is..

stupid lenovo.

no more lenovo laptop in future!

-.-

5jan

met up my 2 goondu friends.

did some shopping for myself.

ya finally i bought sthg for him!

=p

had drinks at iluma suites.

a highly recommended place!

(:

had dinner at bj pastamania.

n we watched alvin & chipmunks 2 at iluma.

the show is so great!

10/10

=D

7jan

finally my goondu friend who has not been working for 4mths plus.

found job n start working le.

happy for her!

(:

no more doing crew schedule.

finally~

but im kind of bu fu qi.

when i do schedule.

down crew like siao.

den now she do schedule.

got enough crew liao.

low peak season.

do schedule of coz easy lah.

hais.

watever lahh.

i dont care.

as long as im less stress can le.

still planning our may bkk trip.

fast fast cfm n wana book tix le!

excited cant wait!!!

=D

ytd i went to a bread shop near my house to buy waffle.

while waiting i heard my fav dj's voice frm 933 last time.

ya she went over to another radio station le.

sads.

just missed her voice n her programme.

ciaos~

(:

say bye to 2009.

say hello to 2010.

happy new year to all!

(:

2009

i adopt alot of changes.

i realised im silly.

i realised my mistakes.

i dont noe how to appreciate.

im lost a couple of times.

i had be forgiven alot of times.

i cried alot.

overall happiness for 2009: 6/10

1 only thing tat nv change.

their love for me n my love for them.

u noe who u are.

u all are the only ones be with me during my most down period of time.

i believe our love for each other will nv change.

even 10yrs 20yrs or even 50yrs down the road.

am i right?

(:

ohh ya.
actually i did something good before 2009 ends.
(:
i talked to (actually is msn lah) someone tat im angry with for 2.5mths.
we have not been contacting all these while.
she even hide herself when she see me.
i 'tot' i have lose a friend.
i 'think' i had forgiven her.
i 'think' she's my friend again.
if not she wont be bother to wish me happy bdae.
she wont be bother to msn me asking me still angry with her.

happy 2009 ending (:

31dec new year eve.

most of u must be either at marina or sentosa or vivo celebrating counting down right?

as for me?

finished work at 11pm.

i really got no plan n no where to go.

no one call me n i dont noe who to call.

so i assume all my friends had their own plans.

i noe u all will ask where's my boy right?

he's oso working till 11pm.

think abt his workplace and my workplace.

think abt his hse n my hse.

all is totally out of way.

by the time we meet i feel tat no use no meaning for me.

so i forget abt meeting up.

ended up.
i spent my very first moment of the year 2010 at home.
sad?
yes im very sad!

at the start of 2010 im so sad le.

can i be happy for the rest of 2010?

i hope so.

n i wana be happy!

(:

2010 new year resolutions

travel to anywhere everywhere (:

no more quarrels with boy (:

get promoted (:

exercise more often (:

few simple resolutions which relates my whole life.

personal.

love.

career.

health.

(:

first time aft 2yrs 3mths im so rude to my superior.

felt so dishearten.

w0w w0w w0w!!!

busy busy busy~~~

tired tired tired...

w0w that i really enjoyed myself to the max during my 5days of leave for my bdae.

busy that aft my leave is x'mas n so damn busy at work.

tired that so busy at work till these few days only get 4-5hrs of slp.

19dec.

first day of my leave.

dear came n picked me up aft his work ard 1900.

we went pai pai to huan tai sui at the temple near my hse.

20dec.

went genting for 3d2n short holiday for my bdae with dear this yr.

(:

we took coach at 0730.

reached genting at 1530.

waited to check-in and finally got our room at 1730.

we spent the rest of the night walking round the whole genting.

indoor theme park.

on our way to the ourdoor theme park to check it out first.

overview of the whole genting.

n finally had our dinner at merrybrown!!
which had already extinct at sg!

we went to visit the casino.

omg~

its scary..

ppl can just simply throw RM1000 to bet.

within a sec.

either gone or u'll get a little richer.

like freak lor.

i would rather use the money to shop till i drop than its gone in a sec.

really..

i think nv ever now n in the future i will gamble like tat.

perhaps im not tat daring enough.

whatever it is.

NO NO NO!!

who the the freak to invent gamble this thing?

-.-

thanks dear for spending my very first moment of my 22nd bdae with me.

(:

oso thanks to those who actually rmb my bdae n wished me.

loves!

(:

loon.

tirta.

shan.

iris.

yun.

shin.

june.

nia.

haffis.

fiza.

i do realised the older i get.

the lesser ppl wished me.

hmm its ok lahh.

(:

21dec.

day 2 at genting.

our breakfast buffet.

proceed to theme park!

=DD

we only spent RM44 to enter the theme park for 2person!

cheap right?

we got technique de.

hees!

=p

space shot.

dear's first ride.

at first im scared.

so i waited at the side to see him took the ride.

i even took the video of the whole ride!

but in the end i took the ride too.

coz if nv take its like wasted gg to theme park nv try those interesting rides.

its fun and exciting.
abit scary too.

haas!

pirate train.

kind of lame.

-.-

lols.

spinner.

1 of my fav!

we took more than 3times!

its real fun.

must try!

dear took the ride alone later in the night.

i dont dare coz its real damn freaking cold.

i scared if i take the ride and spin spin spin on top i will get frozen.

lols!

=D

flying coaster.

another MUST TRY!!

shiock ahh!

(:

dinosaurland.

interesting.

n i nearly drop my camera while taking the pic which he's at the bridge.

arghh!

my heart nearly dropped out!

matahari.

it means sun.

yupp the name for the ride is 'sun'

maybe it look like sun ba.

but to me like sg flyers.

haas!

we took it twice.

once during the day.

once during the night.

different feeling.

different temperature.

at night its much much more colder!

x'mas @ genting.

(:

we took crazy space lab n pirate ship too.

we didnt manage to try all the rides due to weather conditions.

not a rides are in operation.

the most angry thing is...

i cant take the go kart!

due to height requirement!!!

argh!!!

-.-

some random pics taken at the park.

(:

at the end of the day..

bye theme park...

):

afterall..

we really enjoyed.

had a wonderful bdae at the theme park.

(:

22dec.

day 3 at genting.

last day.

not a happy day.

coz leaving genting.

which means my holidays ending soon liao.

):

had the same breakfast buffet.

den walked ard and had shopping.

checked out at 1200.

while our coach back to sg is at 1500.

so we went starbucks for a drink.

had their signature hot chocolate.

slacked till 1430.

and preceed to the bus terminal.

bye genting...

):

reached home at 2300.

tired and knock out halfway uploading n colllaging photos.

-.-

23dec.

last day of my leave.

woke up at 1400.

thanks dear for driving me to centrepoint despite the stupid orchard road jam due to xmas season.

coz i need to get key as im working opening on 24dec.

den went ard bugis area to get his bike's stuffs with his friend.

den went to srg his workplace.

den we went to bedok to have our dinner.

(:

i really love the 5days we spent tgt.

i dont wish to talk abt the past.

wat matter most is future.

loves!

(:

24dec.

back to reality.

back to work.

xmas eve.

was so damn busy.

i worked frm 0630.

i went home 2230.

O.o

reached home straight away knock out~

25dec.

xmas day.

worked at 0700.

tired ahh!

slp for 4hrs nia.

had redbull bought frm louise.

both of us are real tired.

cant tahan.

i went home 1800.

reached home too tired to have my dinner.

knock out once again.

26dec.

boxing day.

worked at 0700.

still not enough slp.

louise n me had redbull again.

lols.

i went off at 1700.

went to marina to meet fadz.

damn long nv meet up le.

den went over to raffles city to meet nia.

den we went to esplanade to slack till 2000.

tired ahh~

tmr working at 2pm.

wana go slp now to replanish my sleeping time!

nights all!

ciaos!

(:

its really all memories.

i really miss all the ppl and those days alot alot alot..

i rmb very clearly wat happened last yr's today - 16dec2008.

how they celebration my bdae.

how they surprise me with the bdae cake.

thanks pakcikk for bringing me into the chiller asking stupid qns like "wats the expire date for the lettuce ar?"

with ur stupid earpiece which u're actually calling n communicating with the rest!

haa =D

wat present they bought for me.

im touched till i cried.

coz i was just kidding saying i like it.

nv ever expect they will buy it for me!

thanks!

(:

its like just happened not long ago.

its still so fresh in my memory.

but actually its 1 yr alr.

n the day aft - 17dec2008

james called me telling me he is transferring out.

i just cant believe my ears.

n now..

louise is always talking to me abt cath.

hmm actually i agreed with her.

if i compare haffis and cath.

its really very big diff.

1 sky 1 ground.

i worked with haffis when he just got promoted.

i start working with cath aft 3-4mths she got promoted.

i dont noe wat to say.

but i think cath shld work more den wat she is doing now.

louise gave me her projection on me.

Q4 of 2010.

can i make it?

i hope so.

now i think i shldnt have the eagerness to get promoted.

coz i dont wana be a "dont noe anything 1st asst"

(:

argh!!!

its just not my day for the past few days!

-_-

fri..work graveyard..

went back to work aft 2 off days.

read comms book..

one thing.

y suddenly i felt cath is like gg against me?

saying i nv put up cafe n dk sales projections.

cafe ok my job..

dk?

oso me?

kind of wth..

suddenly im thinking wats the meaning of teamwork?

i find the word 'teamwork' is bullshit!

since i didnt put up.

must be im busy n overlooked.

cant she just help me do tat simple job?

n i'll appreciate it lots!

instead she picked on me for not doing tat!

arghh!!!

another thing..

y cath always pin point on my sales projection?

its not the first time alr.

i did as per louise's instructions.

louise - my restaurant mgr

cath - my 1st asst mgr

who shall i listen to?

of coz louise!

i was so damn fed up!

i told louise abt this.

n i told louise help me talk to cath wat im doing is as per her instruction.

not i anyhow project the sales!

n hor if i nv do wat louise expecting.

she will come and scold n nag me long b4 cath make noise.

arghh!!

really wth.......

one more thing!

cath can tell me 1 of the part time crew cant work for the whole mth of dec while dec is halfway gone.

n i did my crew schedule for 3weeks of dec le.

really nonsense!

im really really FED UP!!

n i comms back BIG BIG!!!

arghh!!

another one more thing!!

suresh act clever go anyhow changed the crew's shifts with stupid reasons.

i really feel like telling him.

"if u like to change shift for the crews, n if u think doing crew schedule is simple, i handover to u lahh"

again its not the first time.

hmm..

i just dont like ppl changing shift aft i had done my crew schedule.

its like my hardwork.

n doing crew schedule is really NOT EASY.

i just feel they are like over writting my right.

arghh!

hais..

see!

so many things happened aft i came back frm 2 off days n starting of my shift.

totally no mood during the rest of the night!

-_-

sat..worked graveyard too..

got sabo-ed by lucky plaza!

made me had to do a FREE DELIVERY at 1am!!!

i called up lucky plaza.

scolded n screwed the mgr upside down!!!

coz i was really very the damn angry!!!

aft scoldings.

i realised she is the 1st asst mgr.

wat kind of 1st asst lor.

like tat i oso can become 1st asst!

-_-

now i blacklisted lucky plaza.

ever im on shift they call up need help or anything.

N-O!!!!

these 2 days worked graveyard really made me high blood pressure.

argh!!!

ytd sun off.

nv meet him coz he claimed he got sthg to do.

fine.

i slept one whole day.

till night i woke up n msn with june.

haa!

the both of us havent had dinner.

we met up at chomp chomp.

tgt with chui teng, loon, hung ming and michelle.

(:

and i met zhao n his gang there.

lols.

=D

today worked 1130am.

starting of shift.

crews giving attitudes.

i really got the urge to shout at them.

"u all very clever u all become mgr n run the shift lahh!"

idiotic crews!

n crews giving me black faces.

fine i dont care and i dont give a damn!

abt evening i think i got food poison.

diarrhea.

running toilet in and out.

hais.

hope tmr i'll be fine and can do my crew schedule.

coz i got no more off days for this week to do liao.

reached home had medicine.

alittle better only..

anw..

thanks pakcikk (:

alrighty..

i wana go slp n rest.

hope for better tmr.

(:

back frm dinner with yun and june!

at kovan hk cafe.

(:

shan, edwin and LEROY joined us!!

he is really the combination of the 2 of them!

duh!

lols!

=D

he is real cute..

hees..

ps: shan..i wont wait for leroy..get ur leroy wait for my future daughter instead k?den we'll become in-laws?..i cant imagine if it really happened one day... LOLs =D

this time let me be the hardworking one to upolad photos?

haas

our dinner..

LEROY~

yun & june belated x'mas exchange gifts (:

omg~

im kind of get back to my old habit of shopping online!

gosh!

tempted to 1 of the newest updates of bonito dress!

=P

suddenly rmb james' bdae oso on dec.

msg haffis asking when's the date.

n he told me its 4dec.

-_-

forget it den..

next yr den wish him ba.

lols.

=D

hmm..

dont ask me again to go zouk out.

i tot i told u clearly y i dont wana go..

y do u still ask me again?

this time...

i wont get tempted again...

ya i noe i promised u all lotsa mths ago to go with u all.

even beginning of nov i told louise 12dec i work opening n 13dec let me go off.

she refused.

till end of nov louise came back to me n said 12dec can let me work opening.

but 13dec i might need to work.

i told louise "its ok..just let me work..im not gg zouk out le.."

she was shocked n asked me "y?? i heard haffis gg lehh..."

"ya of coz he's gg..sthg happened n im not gg le..just schedule me work can le"

well..

i think u all might not noe..

actually he's the good guy n im the bad girl..

i used to sneak out late in the night hang out with them without him noeing..

be it gg out for supper or even clubbing.

perhaps tats the life i used to hoping for..

but now?

dont noe y suddenly i felt tired le..

dont want those life le..

i wana be his guai guai girl.

perhaps aft so many quarrels i finally realised he is more impt den me enjoying life ba..

am i stupid?

i think i am..

i had lessen the times hanging out with them..

i dont noe whether u realised or not.

but me myself i knew it clearly.

(:

all of u asking me hows me and him.

i really dont noe.

dont noe wats the status now.

i just wana stay as wat and how we are now.

at least he still bother to call me.

at least he still bother to ans my phone call.

at least..

i noe he is still ard my life.

i wont wana think wat will happen next.

as long as i appreciate now.

(:

but of coz i hope to go back those lovely days.

coz i really miss calling u "dear"

):

yupp!

my bdae celebration stick to the old plan.

genting trip!

hope it will be a happy one and miracle will happen.

(:

not working again!

hees.

btw suresh just msg me whether i can take over his closing tonight..

i said nope!

got date with jies and leroy!

lols.

=DD

as wat i told my jies on tues.

wed(ytd) i gonna slp the whole day.

yes i did!

wahaha!

but still i went jogging at 6pm.

im not that lazy aft all k!

aft jogging bathed and had dinner.

watched tv.

played games.

talked to him on phone for 2mins?

went to slp.

and today!

woke up ard 1pm.

so bored.

played game.

changed my blog skin.

waiting for mum to come back frm work to bring my breakfast-cum-lunch.

=p

yupp!

finally my mum got a job aft her fell..

it had been 5mths she's jobless.

i really felt damn stress during these 5mths.

now i felt abit relieved.

(:

and waiting for time to meet my jies!

=D

ohh ya!!!

i met samuel!!!

on tues otw to work.

his working at orchard central.

just opposite where am i.

i have not been seeing him for..4yrs? 5yrs?

yupp damn long le.

and he's still the same..

lols.

he asked to go over wat he's doing now.

den i told louise abt it.

she told me to be careful coz skali his company close down again.

lols.

see how lahh..

just say say only..

=p

finally..

we sisters reunion (:

loves!

ytd was my 22nd bdae celebration with my jies.

and oso xmas celebration.

our styles.

xchange gifts with one another.

yupp this yr is kinda early..

coz xiu flying off to beijing for 3weeks..

iris gg on cruise.

sadly yun fell sick cant join us.

as usual shin did not join us.

HAPPILY shan join us!

(:

we went tiong bahru and had lao beijing for our dinner.

i really felt so loved last night.

not the presents i got.

but is the sistership tat we maintained till now.

LOVES LOVES LOVES!!!

<3

thanks jis for the agnes b pink card holder/mini wallet <3

thanks shan for the chomel earrings and necklace <3

and lucky me got xiu's xmas gift-pink organiser <3

ps: refer to lu's blog for pics =P

ps: xiu..i really felt sorry tat wat u got for ur xmas gift ):

ps: hoping for a FULL attendance gathering (:

im using his hp to post this.
kinda cool.
=p

Hmm..
Actually things went on smoothly since tat day..
But why?!!?
Its happened again??!!
I really hate myself!!
I really realised my mistake le.
Now i dont feel like enjoying or watever i used to told him.
Now all i want is to be with him.
I dont noe am i silly or wat.
But i noe tat is my final decision.
I noe he is tired to forgive me again n again..
Im really sorry...
Will i get this one more chance?
Or am i really taking for granted?
Hais...

things getting better?

or not?

i totally got not idea.

i dont wana recall when's the date when we both cried over the phone for an hr.

if he really choose our relationship to remain like this.

i got no comment.

anw..

he did asked me out for dinner aft tat night.

and tat night..

he lost 'our couple ring'

he even asked me 'how?'

well how?

search for it lahh..

i asked him 'will u search for it?'

he ans 'of coz lahh will search for it..'

wat does he mean by tat?

actually i do noes tat he still love me as much.

but i really dont wana be so tat confident.

coz if not i'll be the one crying over and over again.

so now..

we're still as usual contacting each other..

calling each other..

msging each other..

but i dont noe wat's our r/s..

and i dont wana ask him tat..

let it be watever we are now.

at least 'so-call' he got no right to be angry with me.

he got no right to scold me.

he got no right to quarrel with me.

at least im happy.

(:

i noe tat he can be my dream husband in the future.

perhaps now he cant be my perfect bf.

but now till future its still a long way to go.

well..

depends on fate ba during this long way.

(:

i glad tat i have great friends n sis ard me.

1 thing tat i will nv regret in my life.

thanks for replying my nonsense msg late in the night.

spending ur time 'counseling' me.

appreciate!

*loves

(:

well i do admit initially im kinda stubborn.

钻牛角尖

i sees no tmr for me..

but now?

i dont care abt wat will happen next!

as long as im enjoying and im happy RIGHT NOW!

(:

just caught movie with fadz faliq nad and nia.

we watched jennifer's body.

best!

and i felt no burden!

(:

finally back to work again tmr aft 3days off.

and im gg to off another 3days aft tmr!

wahh!

=D

im so busy.

with work.

with friends.

with enjoyment.

with everything!

SO MUCH things happened.

in a mth.

happy.

sad.

perhaps more to sad and unhappy to me.

14oct and 15oct

had our long-ago-planned chalet.

i treasured the 2d1n we spent tgt.

it really made me miss our marina days so tat much.

i believe the rest misses those days too.

we played.

we crazed.

we talked.

we laughed.

*loves!

(:

18oct

met dear.

worked graveyard 2days b4.

so i was kinda tired.

on tat day we're alr not in very good terms.

coz i assume he was unhappy with me gg home late aft my chalet.

so i dont dare to talk too much or to provoke him.

when its time to have dinner.

all i said is 'i got no idea where'

he fed up.

sent me home right away!

isn't is ridiculous?

hais.

things started to get worse.

but still..

i try to remain positive.

19oct

i helped to rush here and there.

taking bus is not free k..

to get ur things done.

tired de leh..

u seems like dont appreciate it.

no thank you..

n u always says i took thing for granted.

den wat r u doing to me?

20oct

went out with nia aft work.

y r u unhappy abt it?

i think i still have my right to have my freedom ba.

21oct to 23oct

dear like nv bother me at all.

to me.

he is my precious.

but who am i to him?

i dont noe.

i just feel i dont get wat i suppose to have.

y other couple can?

but i cant.

felt so hopeless.

suddenly i feel like wanting back single life.

feel like giving up.

24oct

went out aft work.

initially i msg him.

but as usual.

no reply frm him.

so i wana 'test' will he look for me?

will he worry abt me?

i divert all my calls.

finally he msged me asking where am i.

i called him back.

wat i got?

scoldings.

and he hanged up the call.

wth lor.

damn ridiculous.

i havent even got the chance to talk.

hais.

25oct

totally no mood to work.

cry in the bus.

cry in the train.

i dont gave a damn to those to stared at me.

tot can pretend not feeling well.

so tat i can escape the batam trip the next day.

coz initially my thinking is..

i got no mood to enjoy liao.

but second tot..

i better to out and relax myself.

if not i stay at home i'll think more cry more.

26oct

patch outing to batam.

tot he'll be there.

at least i can share my sadness.

but expected he wont go de lahh.

so forget it.

anw i saw chongmeng there.

lols.

shocked!

aft 1 whole day at batam.

played go kart.

went massage.

went shopping.

i enjoyed.

(:

came back and reached sg.

went over to dear's workplace.

tot can see him.

can talk to him.

i reached.

msged him.

he asked me to go home.

wat is my feeling?

i got no more feeling le.

i really dont noe wat to do.

29oct

cp crew outing 2009.

the worst crew outing i ever organised.

coz the crews are not supporting.

bored.

i almost cried just b4 the outing.

and cath realised it.

argh!

im ok lah.

anw i had lotsa fun too!

=D

i did wat i normal usually did.

msg him.

wake him up.

bla bla bla.

but still.

he is so cold towards me.

yup.

i really did my best.

i got the tots of giving up.

but i cant.

i really love him so much tat i cant bear to give him up.

im smiling laughing daily.

but who noes deep in my heart im crying so hard?

endless work tasks for me.

i really getting older very fast.

dont stress me le lahh!!